Monday, July 27, 2009
11:46 PM
now that i'm caught up in the who aspects of working life
i can only look forward to birthday parties, hang out sessions or drinking sessions.
it seems that last time i still would be excited and still look forward to it
but it seems that now it is twice the anxiety! twice the longing.
i think i'm turning dull
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Monday, July 20, 2009
11:26 PM
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
So what do i do?
Sunday, July 19, 2009
1:29 AM
i'm just wondering.
i know that i'm not beautiful on the outside
but i have so much to offer on the inside
i know what i want in life
i work hard for what i want
i do things with integrity
i have values
i'm independent
i would make many sacrifices
i think i'm family oriented
i'm spontaneous
i'm rational
i don't scrutinize people
i'm decent
i wear appropriately
i think.
it's not that i'm jealous or self pitying myself
but i'm just thinking
am i that repulsive
i may not have much to offer on the surface
but there is so much more to me inside to offer.
one can only feel rejected so much.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
12:00 AM
Itunes: Rookie of the year - Liars and Battlelines
down and out.
i truly am.
it's not as though i wish upon myself to be in this position
but i'm forced to be in this position
i feel miserable just thinking of it
i believe i made far too many sacrifices already
yet, i have to make so much more.
it seems as though i'm not allowed to be upset
i'm not allowed to be the one who needs a listening ear
now is someone else's time to be upset
and i'll be stealing the spotlight.
i'm suffering away from the spotlight.
i'm asked to speak up
but yet when i do, counter-reactions happen and i regret immediately for saying it
even i want to say something or do something
i always have to think of my words and my actions will be hurting someone
is not that i want to? but i'm forced into that position
and who knows? i may end up being the 'bitch' who ruins everything
i really don't mean it
there is only so much i can do.
i'm really crying on the inside already
will you understand?
always the Advisor never the Advisee
SIGH.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
1:21 AM
The kid has grown up and now she has hit the big 2!
everyone has told me that once you hit your 20s, the 30s will come very fast
and that is uber true?
7 months of 2009 has just passed so quickly and i'm gonna be 21 next month.
TOO FAST.
people changed over this period
be for the better or for the worst
shan't elaborate much
they should know themselves, or maybe not.
well, hopefully i'm not doing a serious case of the 'pot-calling-the-cattle-black' kinda thing?
once again.
HAPPY BIRHTDAY MEL MEL!
sun and moon / Muddy Murphy's
AWESOME TIME
AWESOME DRINKS
AWESOME FRIENDS.
:D
PICTURES
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
5:30 PM
why is it that we are always that one who are the bad guys.
the one who did you wrong
the one who were mean to you
the DEVIL?
have you ever once thought that your actions, your words, your attitude is what made us behave the way we are to you?
you can be mean to us but we can't be mean to you
you can be a bitch to us but we can't be a bitch to you
you can talking rubbish about us but we can't say anything about you
i seriously realise
that never once, have you ever thought that you are at fault.
NEVER.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
7:59 PM
I'm the refree in a boxing match
but somehow, after the match
I only belong in the ring whilst the Boxers go have a drink together.
confidant?
alliance?
dependant?
punching bag? CHECK
Friday, July 3, 2009
6:16 PM
I realised, i haven't updated in 6 months.
so just a summary of the past 6 months.
GRADUATED.
SLACKED
BANGKOK
WORK
WORK
WORK
BANDUNG
WORK
ACCEPTED INTO MURDOCH
WORK
PERTH
WORK
WORK
WORK
WORK
WORK.
what's to come:
more work and SCHOOL in sept! :\
btw. links to the various trip photos
BANGKOK
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