Tuesday, December 29, 2009
8:45 PM
maybe what he said is true.
i'm un-deserving.
there is a huge hole in my heart.
emptiness
12:07 AM
Dear blog of mine.
i was just wondering, am i wrong to be feeling the way i am now?
i know the advices that i am going to hear from my friends
but i really can't help but feel this way.
am i really that terrible a person.
should i only have positive thoughts and be strong in everything i do?
is it really wrong for me to constantly think why things are the way it is?
this armor or exterior shield that i have been carrying for so long is really starting to wear me down.
would i be wronged or be called weak if i want to give up?
is it wrong that my heart aches at times?
who do i have to please?
is there something wrong with me.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
11:23 PM
somehow, i can't explain the way i feel right now.
there is no specific word that fits it.
not anger, sadness, emotional, regretful, afraid or uncertain.
it's just that i feel down but i can't figure why, sure there are driving forces but yet. i can't explain it. i just want to have a quiet time alone. stay home. don't go out. hide away.
the self pitying shall end.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
6:16 PM
I'M DONE WITH BRIDGING/SCHOOL!
i must say that it has been difficult!
what everyone takes to study in 3 months i have to study it in 1 week! (20hours).
:(
i think the worst subject that im facing and i absolutely loathe cause i feel like the dumbest in class and im like super duper slower den my classmates and you can clearly a HUGE ASS question mark on my face would be BUSINESS STATISTICS! :[
IMMA FAIL. I KNOW ALREADY. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START IF I WERE TO START PRACTICING. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH