Friday, January 29, 2010
9:03 PM
today, the old scars were opened again.
a little bird told me something shocking about someone.
that bird told me about it before but i refused to believe it,
i was secretly hoping that the little bird will come around and tell me it was a lie, a prank
but i realized that i was in denial.
it is hard to believe that
the person who i cared so much for
not in a romantic way, but in a very close knit way,
the person who i would had done everything for,
the person who u shared soooo many memories with
the person who to this day, i still think about
the person who to this day, i think is the closest ____ to me.
the person who i cried so many tears on
could be like that.
i regret what happened between us,
i really do not know what happened between us
we led separate lives, we drifted apart.
i have no idea why things got so awkward between us.
although i have those memories, i'm starting to think they were dreams
they were not real.
but what i feel sad about is that, that somebody could do something
to put what that little bird went through, to hurt that little bird.
and i regret even more that i did not believe that little bird
who meant no harm and could never do me any harm
who only wanted to tell me the truth.
you are no longer the person i thought you were, to think that i vouched for you repeatedly.
now i'm starting to wonder if the things that you said are true.
the things that i chose to believe in.
these would be my last few tears that i'm crying for you.